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Melanie Discovers Chapter 5

latoyacollins@yahoo.com — Sat, 07 Nov 2009 08:00:08 GMT

Title: Melaine Discovers

Beta: My girl Judy

Summary: Melanie's niece Morgan is moving to town. She's been having a rough time but she has a best friend Ally who has been helping her. Ally is very secretive and sweet and only thinks of her and this has gotten Melanie worried about his motives. What happens when he Melanie and this friend comes face to face? How will this affect the gang? And most importantly why is it that once everything comes out Brian and Justin's relationship will never be the same?

Chapter Notes: This is not a death fic Brian Lives

Word Count: 2337

If you Need to catch up

melanie discovers chapter 4

melanie discover chapter 3

melanie discovers chapter 2

melanie discovers chapter 1

Brian woke up the next morning on a mission. Today everything was going to change. After today everyone would know the truth and the chips would fall where they lay. It was all about Morgan now. Getting her through this… because she was going to get through this. He wrote a letter for Justin and left the loft to set things into motion. Today everything would finally be out in the open.

Melanie Marcus couldn’t stop the anxiety building in her body. She was pissed. She was pissed that her niece was possibly going to die, and maybe all of this could be different if her brother would just stop being an ass. So what if his wife cheated on him. That was a given but it was years ago and there’s no denying the paternity of Morgan because when you look at her, although she has her mother’s complexion those eyes are his. She wanted to go and smack him but Ally Patrick had beaten her to that too. Who the hell was this guy? She went and knocked on his door and he was nursing a busted nose because Ally Patrick had smacked him in the face. Damn him for taking that too. Who was this guy? More importantly where the hell was he?

"Did you find him?" asked a groggy Morgan, just waking up.

"No. But I’m sure he’ll show up? How are you feeling?"

"Oh I’m good, when can I go home?"

"They want to keep you here right now. So maybe tomorrow."

"I will not die here, Aunt Melanie!"

"Don’t talk like that. It’s going to be okay, you are not dying. I’m going to go and see can I find him okay. I’ll be right back."

Melanie couldn’t believe that she had left her dying niece in the room to go and find a guy who she didn’t have any idea what he looked like. She had to get out of there. She couldn’t be in there and watch what might be the last day of her niece’s life. She just couldn’t. She rounded the corner and Dr. Rhodes walked up to her with a smile on his face.

"We have a donor!" he screamed.

"What?" Melanie asked.

"I never thought it would happen either and he just came in and said that he wanted to do it, that it had to go to Morgan. We’re extracting it from his hip now. He has a problem with Anesthesia so we couldn’t put him under. So he’s feeling some discomfort and he’s not hiding it either."

To say that Melanie was surprised when she drew back the curtain and saw one Brian Kinney would be an understatement.

"Brian, what are you doing here?"

This was not how Brian wanted the truth about him being Ally Patrick to come out so he had to think fast.

"I heard that Gus was a match and that you and Lindsay didn’t want to put him through this so I decided that I’d do it."

"But why? You didn’t even take the time out of your busy schedule to meet Morgan so why are you doing this?" Melanie asked bitterly.

"She’s a kid, Mel. So can you just stop thinking about me always being evil and then think about her. Nobody deserves to go through something like this, let alone a kid."

"Brian, I don’t know what to say. I just need to say---"

Melanie thoughts were cut off by a nurse barging into the room grabbing Brian.

"What the hell do you think you’re doing, Brian!" screamed Joella, his nurse.

"Joella, it’s so good to see you. What are you doing here? Thought you didn’t come in until afternoons?"

"We talked about this, Brian. Due to your condition you can’t give bone marrow. It’s not safe. How do you feel? How many fingers?"

Brian looked to his left at Melanie who had both concern and anger on her face.

"Joella, mind your words. You may have people thinking the worst." Brian stated.

"Brian, we told you that your body is trying to heal and your immune system is down. When you told us last week you wanted to be a donor we told you because of the Anemia and the cancer you couldn’t---"

"Cancer!" shouted Mel.

"Brian, what is she talking about?"

"Could you excuse us for a second, Joella?"

"Brian, I’m sorry I just assumed that she…."

"It’s fine, Joella. I should have told her a long time ago.

"Melanie, I have cancer."

Melanie really didn’t know what to say when he told her that. She was stunned, of course. Then she really took a look at him. He was skinny. For you to notice Brian was skinny he had to be skinny. His fingers were longer and so was his nose. She could see it. She could see it and it angered her. It angered her very much. They should be all focused on Morgan and his telling her this now was taking this focus from where it belonged and that was not fair. She needed to feel about Morgan. She didn’t have time to think of her son’s father dying. He was not important.

"I have to get out of here. Tell me this, Brian. Where does Ally Patrick live?"

Brian didn’t really know what game Mel was playing. She was obviously disgusted by him. All he was doing was trying to help Morgan. He was standing there practically dead and she didn’t even recognize or acknowledge what he was doing. He didn’t really want it but damn, she could have offered.

"I have no idea where he lives. I’m not obligated to give you that information if I knew anyway."

"What? I know you talk to Justin. You know what he means to her? Tell me where he lives so he’ll have time to say goodbye."

"Why would I? I’m uncaring and heartless, so why don’t you just fuck off!"

Melanie wanted to say something but he was standing there with that smirk on his face and it just angered her. It angered her more than she thought that anything could possibly anger her. He didn’t care. He didn’t care about anything and that was why she hated him. She knew that he didn’t care about anything due to the smirk on his fucking face.

"I hate you, Brian. I’ve tried and I’ve tried to see what it is that Lindsay sees in you but you know what. I hate you. The only thing about you I love is Gus, and every day I pray to God that he will grow up and be nothing like you. You are cold and you deserve whatever you get. Hey! You have cancer. Who knows? Maybe God is doing us a favor and you’ll be wiped from existence."

Then she walked away. She knew that maybe the things that she said might have been harsh. But what gave him the right? Her niece was dying and she only wanted one thing. She wanted this Ally Patrick and he could give her what she wanted and he was being an ass. What was the thing with the marrow? She had to find Ally. She had to find him before it was too late.

Brian couldn’t believe it. He had the chance right then to tell her. It would have been perfect and he would have seen the smirk fall from her face. She wouldn’t do that though, she wouldn’t give him the satisfaction. All he knew was that Morgan needed him and he was off to see her. Fuck Melanie! She would be sorry when all of this came out. He had to get to Morgan. He took one step and felt light-headed.

"Brian, are you okay?" asked Joella.

"I’m super." he replied and then he passed out.

Justin sat at the diner sipping his coffee. He could feel her eyes on him and he knew that was about to come out of her mouth had been building but he knew that after today things would never be the same. Brian was going to come clean today. The question was should he come clean for him now?

"Where is he?" she asked.

"I told you Deb, Brian has been under the weather?" Justin replied.

"Melanie and Lindsay need him right now. They are going through something tragic. I thought even he would be a friend at a time like this."

"I’m not getting into this right now. You don’t understand what’s going on right now, Deb. I would tell you. I want to tell you so badly but there’s just so much and I made a promise to him and he’s more important right now."

"What can be so important that you have to keep it from me?"

"It’ll all come out later, Deb. I’m sorry. I’ve got to go."

Morgan felt the side of her bed dip, and before she closed her eyes she knew right away who it was. It was him. It was her Ally.

"You came back. When they said that you left, I was so scared."

"I’m fine, and you’re going to be okay too."

"I don’t know, Ally. I’ve been trying to hold on for a match but it’s not coming. It’s not coming and I’m going to die. That’s why I’ve been here with the camera."

"What have you been doing?"

"I’ve been finishing up my documentary. You know it’s all about you. I’m going to make sure you are not alone. You’re not going to be alone. I want someone to be around here to take care of you. I’ve learned that this family that you say you have… don’t really care. Your baby’s mothers wouldn’t even let you see him the other day and that was wrong.

"It’s not like that, Morgie. I told you that there’s more to it than that. You should understand. The person that you see here and the person that I really am, I’m not that person. I let you see who you want to see. Who you need to see but not who I am."

Brian was about to continue but then the door opened and a woman walked in with a bag of plasma. Morgan looked at Ally and then he smiled. She knew that he had done it. He had given her the life that she always wanted.

"Ally?"

"I told you that I would make sure you got the life that you wanted and I’ve given it to you. You and I were a match."

"Ally, you did this? You gave me the marrow? You were not supposed to do that. Are you okay?"

She looked at his appearance and saw that he was about to drop and she slid over in her extra large bed. He had made sure that she had a suite. He always took the best care of her. He slid in the bed beside her and closed his eyes. He really did need the rest. His lids felt so heavy.

"Thank you for doing this for me, Ally."

"Sure thing, kiddo. You know that I’d do anything for you."

"I know but you didn’t have to do this. I’m not your daughter or anything."

"You are a part of the family. You are my daughter in every way that matters."

"I just have to say that I love you. That I appreciate everything that you do for me."

"I do, and I don’t even care. There’s something that I need to tell you. I know who you are. I know that you’re Brian Kinney. It doesn’t matter to me. That’s why I’m going to tell everyone about you in the documentary. Everyone will know what Brian Kinney has done for me. I didn’t mean for this to make you speechless." Ally?

Morgan was shocked to see that he was asleep. She realized that he needed the sleep, that maybe he was tired. He had just had radiation and then he had given her the plasma and maybe he really did need a good night’s rest. Then she noticed the way his chest was rising and falling.

"Ally?" she said, giving him a nudge.

"Ally, can you hear me? Wake up!" she shouted, giving him a harder nudge.

"Ally, wake up now!" she screamed.

There still was no response and she felt herself starting to panic. She shook him and before she knew it she slapped him. She had slapped the crap out of his face and he was still unresponsive.

She dropped the camera, little knowing that it zeroed in on his face. It was her first time getting him on camera in the two complete years that she had known him. She rang for the nurse and they removed him from her bed and then she couldn’t help but cry as they seemed to be working on him. Then she saw them take out the paddles and shock him. After that she just cried. She cried and she cried because Ally Patrick was dead. He had died saving her life. More importantly Brian Kinney was dead. He had died saving her life and no one would ever know about it. No one in her family would ever know the good man that Brian Kinney was.

No, she would make sure that everyone knew what kind of person that he was and what he had done for her.

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Melanie Discovers Chapter 4

latoyacollins@yahoo.com — Sat, 10 Oct 2009 09:48:07 GMT

Title: Melaine Discovers

Beta: My girl Judy

Summary: Melanie's niece Morgan is moving to town. She's been having a rough time but she has a best friend Ally who has been helping her. Ally is very secretive and sweet and only thinks of her and this has gotten Melanie worried about his motives. What happens when he Melanie and this friend comes face to face? How will this affect the gang? And most importantly why is it that once everything comes out Brian and Justin's relationship will never be the same?

Word Count 3363

If You Need To Catch Up:

melanie discover chapter 3

melanie discovers chapter 2

melanie discovers chapter 1

Brian mentally patted himself on the back for a job well done. z88; Morgan had been in the Pitts for three months now and she didn’t have any clue who he really was. He had even managed to avoid Mel and her questioning stare. z88;It made him not able to go to Gus’ birthday party but later Morgan brought Gus over to meet "Ally" so in the end he still got to see his son on his birthday. z88; Although normally he didn’t give a damn what people thought of him but the lying to Morgan was really getting to him. z88;That was the whole point of her. z88;With her he could be someone halfway decent and he couldn’t be a decent person if he lied to her all the time. z88;He was meeting her for lunch. This would be the day his two worlds collided. This would be the day Ally Patrick died.

Morgan didn’t know how she was going to do this. z88; She had been avoiding Ally for a while. He had told her that he had a present for her and ever since that night she did whatever she could to stop herself from seeing what that gift was. z88; Now she was meeting him for lunch and she had a flyer for the father/daughter dance that was coming up at her new school. z88; It would be next month. z88; She remembered the one that they had both attended the past year…..

Flashback

"So tell me how do you feel?" Ally asked, concerned.

"Overwhelmed! Last week I was up in my room crying my heart out about tonight and you, you are amazing. z88; Why are you so nice to me? z88; You don’t know me? z88;Why do you do the things that you do for me? z88; I don’t need your pity."

"It’s because of your moxy." Ally replied.

"My moxy?"

"Yeah, that first day in the hospital. z88; When they wheeled my miserable ass in the room and they told you not to bother me you didn’t stop. z88;You walked right over there and no matter how I begged, you didn’t stop. z88; z88;You’ve been something I can’t shake. z88;Only one other person has had that affect on me."

"Oh? z88;Is this the mysterious guy you’re dating that you won’t let me meet? z88; I can’t meet any of your family. z88; Why is that? z88;Won’t they like me?"

"Truth be told, they’d love you. z88; It’s me they have a problem with."

"Ally, what’s going on with your family?"

"As I told you before, blood doesn’t make you family and the family that I do have…well… they would never believe the stuff that you and I do."

"I’m happy that you decided to bring me here. I called my dad and asked but he doesn’t want to have anything to do with me. z88; I just don’t think he wants to see his little girl dying."

"You’re not going anywhere, Morgie. I’ll make sure of that. z88; Don’t worry about anything. z88;I’m your dad now."

Morgan was enjoying this moment. z88;She couldn’t tell him, not now. z88;How was she going to tell him that her cancer was back? z88;She would enjoy this moment and hold on to it forever. z88;She knew now what her documentary would be about - Ally She would tell them what a great person he was and then he would have a family after she died.

They must have danced and danced and then a song played that changed everything. z88;A golden oldie called "Save the Last Dance for Me". z88; Once it started Ally fled from the dance floor.

End Flashback

"Didn’t you hear me calling you?" shouted Ally, approaching Morgan.

"Yeah… I just… well, I was thinking about something. z88; Remember that dance you took me to last year? z88; It was the night I found out what happened to your boyfriend?"

"Yeah, what about the dance?"

"My new school is having one and I was just wondering if you’d like to go with me?"

"Oh Morgie, just give me a day. z88;I’d love to go there with you, but after what I tell you here now you might change your mind.

z88;

"Hey, got a minute?" Melanie asked, after entering Ted’s office.

"Sure. What can I do for you?" Ted asked nervously.

"Don’t worry, I come in peace. I’ve been doing some thinking and well, if Brian can trust you and have you here working around all his millions then so can I. Besides, I read your letter and it was beautiful. So all is forgiven, Teddy."

"Oh well, what can I do for you? Ted asked suspiciously.

"What can you tell me about Ally Patrick?"

"Well, you know pretty much the same thing I told you at your house the other night. That he’s a copy writer here. He’s one of the best that Brian has, actually."

"Morgan says that Brian isn’t too keen on him. Is that true?"

"Melanie, I don’t know if I’m comfortable telling you these types of things."

"Oh, come on Teddy. It’s me. We dish all the time about this kind of thing. So Brian doesn’t like him either?"

"I wouldn’t say that. Actually I would say that it’s more that the two of them are cut from the same cloth but Brian just doesn’t know how to open up like Ally does. He’s a great guy. I like him."

"Is he here today? It’s like he’s hiding from me and I really need to see him. So if you could just point me in the direction of his office."

"No, he’s not here. You know he’s got cancer, right?"

"Yes. That’s another reason why Morgan wants me to meet him. She wants me to take care of him when she dies."

"How is she really, Melanie? She seems like such a lovely girl."

"She needs a bone marrow match. I was tested and I’m not, but ironically Gus is. He’s too young, though. This kind of procedure could be dangerous for someone as young as him. Lindsay and I put together a drive and we’re going to have it at the GLC this weekend. So come down and get tested and maybe we can find her a match?"

"Of course, Mel, I’ll be there. Things are sort of slow here. Do you want to go and grab some real lunch?"

"Yeah, I’d like that."

z88;

Justin couldn’t believe that this was now his life. He was a stalker. He was stalking his boyfriend who he had followed to a café. The décor was beautiful and it was gay-friendly but that’s not why he was there. He watched Brian approach a young woman. Her back was turned and he was too far away to see her face but he got a good view of Brian. He was laughing. He was smiling too, not the "Kinney" smirk but a real smile. A smile that took him two years to see. What the hell made this bitch so special? He watched Brian lean in to kiss her. It was nothing special. It was a kiss on the cheek but the love he could see on his face when he came back into view is what hurt him. That’s what hurt the most. He couldn’t take it anymore. He practically knocked a waiter over when he ran from the restaurant.

"He what!" Ally practically screamed.

"It’s fine, Ally, really. I knew that he was false hope anyways. Aunt Melanie has put together a drive and we’re going to try and find me a match there. She had Gus tested and he’s a match but he’s too young to do something like that so this drive will help."

"Wait. Gus, Gus is a match?" he asked excitedly.

"Yeah, why?"

"No reason. When’s the drive? I’m going to come down and see if I’m a match."

"NO!" she screamed.

"Why the hell not? I could be a match. I could be the key to all of this."

"Ally, you’re sick yourself. You can’t do that, do you promise me? With your anemia, and everything else you can’t do that. It’s too dangerous. Promise me!"

"I promise."

"Now what is it you wanted to tell me?"

Brian looked at Morgan. He just couldn’t do this to her. She had just told him that her father was a match for her and he didn’t even care. He wasn’t going to step up to the plate. He was garbage and he’d be visiting him just as soon as he got away from this café. He couldn’t take both of her dads in the same day. That was something that he just couldn’t do.

"Nothing. It’s not important. Go ahead and order. You can have anything you want? After we eat I can take you to that surprise."

"Ally, this place seems so expensive. I don’t want to keep spending your money. You’ve done so much for me already."

"It’s fine. Go ahead and order whatever you like. I told you money is not a problem for me right now."

"Fine. I’m going to go to the ladies room first, though. So if you’ll excuse me."

Brian knew right away something was the matter when she stood up. It was almost like a light had turned on in her eyes and she was horrified. Before he could ask her if she was okay she grabbed the table cloth to get her bearings and collapsed to the floor before he could get to her.

"Fuck!" he screamed.

"Come on, Morgan. Open your eyes. Can you hear me? Open your eyes, Morgie! Open your fucking eyes! Someone call for help, now!" Brian screamed, holding her tightly to his body.

z88;

"So that’s why you want to talk to Ally?" Ted asked, as he and Mel walked down the street.

"Yeah. I mean, he might be a match. I was thrilled to find out my brother was. I thought for once he’d step up but he didn’t. He doesn’t even care about his own daughter. Then I thought that because he was a match that maybe, just maybe, I would be. But I’m not, Teddy. Ally seems to love her. Maybe he is."

"Wow! But hey, do you think that he could do something like that? With the cancer - is that a good thing? Can he even donate?"

"I don’t know. I haven’t talked to anyone about that. You know him. Do you have any idea why he might be avoiding me?"

"I told you I’m not comfortable talking about him. He’s shy and complicated and stubborn. Maybe he doesn’t want to intrude on you and yours."

"No. Morgan’s mom said that he came around all the time while they were still living in Shelby. It’s something to do with here and now. It’s something to do with us. I just can’t put my finger on it. Damn! I’m getting a text. Let’s stop for a minute. Oh, it’s from Linds"

Ted stood there and watched the color completely drain from his friend’s face as she read the text message.

"Everything okay, Mel?"

"No. Could you drive me to the hospital?"

"Of course, come on."

z88;

"You can’t be serious!" shouted Daphne trying to hold back her laughter.

"Yes, I’m serious. I saw them together, sitting in that new Café on Elm holding hands like two perfect people in love. Of all the scenarios I thought of this was never one of them. I found the receipts for dinners, clothes, jewelry and all kinds of shit Daphne but I didn’t expect to see that."

"How does she look? Is she blonde? I know he likes blondes – like with you and Lindsay."

"This isn’t funny Daphne and no, she’s not blonde. She looks like, well, she looks like you from what I could tell. Caramel-colored skin and the straightest jet black hair you could imagine. It was silky like yours is right after you spend all morning getting that frizz straightened."

"Wow! Brian likes them Urban! You mean I really could’ve had a chance." Daphne stated, not holding back her laughter this time.

"This is not funny! I just told you that the man I love is cheating on me with a woman and you’re sitting there laughing your ass off. I thought you were supposed to be my friend?"

"I am and you have got to be out of your mind if you think that Brian would cheat on you, let alone with a woman. I thought the two of you were talking now. I thought the two of you were communicating. There’s no telling what was going on. Why didn’t you go over and say hello?"

"And give him the satisfaction of knowing I was there? Nope, I was not doing that."

"Of course not, ‘cause you didn’t want to be embarrassed when it was a client or something. Brian dumping you for a woman? What has gotten into you Justin?"

"I don’t know. He’s just being so damn secretive. At first I thought he might’ve been fooling around with Michael. Don’t look at me like that! I know it’s crazy but it could happen. He still hasn’t met Morgan. He’s avoiding her like the plague."

"That’s understandable. She has cancer. Every morning when he gets up he sees cancer all over himself and it’s killing him to know that he doesn’t have control of it. He doesn’t want to be around a little girl who is practically dead."

"Someone’s enjoying their psychology class, I see."

"Hey, I want to be a doctor and besides I can understand. When I met her she was so bright and vibrant it’s hard to believe that a girl like that could be dead next month. You better get your phone. It’s been beeping like crazy. Maybe it’s Brian trying to explain."

Brian really couldn’t explain what was going on in his head. The last thing he remembered was going to the hospital and them taking her to the ER. He called her mom and the doctors were talking. Things didn’t look good. They were making her comfortable and just that phrase made Brian angry. He was really angry. Now he stood on the steps of a house that he had gotten directions to, knocking on the door.

"May I help you?" asked the small man who answered.

"Are you Stephen Marcus?" Brian asked calmly.

"Yes. Yes I am. How may I help you?"

"This is for Morgan." Brian stated as he pushed the man inside and slammed the door behind him.

z88;

Morgan opened her eyes and she knew immediately where she was. She put her hand up to her head and her beautiful wig had been removed. She loved that wig. Ally had gotten it for her even though he preferred her without it. He knew that sometimes a girl just needed to feel normal and that helped her because it was so realistic. Then it dawned on her….

"Ally? Where is he? He was with me in the ambulance?" she screamed.

"No one was here when we got here, honey. The nurse told us that he was here but he was frazzled and scared about your diagnosis. He left." stated her mom.

"Mom, you and Mel have to find him. I need him! He has to see that I’m okay. You have to go now. I need him. I want him here now!" she screamed, getting agitated.

"Fine. No need to get upset. I’ll go right now and see if I can find him." Melanie stated.

z88;

Justin walked slowly into the loft. He knew that it was probably wrong of him to return there but he was so tired of all the fucking looks. "Where’s Brian? They asked. "He’s such an asshole for not coming." they ranted. Well, guess what? He didn’t give a flying fuck where Brian was. Somewhere with his woman. A woman!

Justin thoughts were cut off by a snicker from the corner.

"Brian, is that you?" Justin asked the figure in the dark.

"Who the fuck else would it be, sunshine?" Brian snapped.

"Why haven’t you answered your phone? I’ve been calling you for the last hour. Mel’s niece Morgan isn’t doing well and everyone is at the hospital and I was stuck having to---What the hell happened to your hand?" Justin gasped.

"It met the face of one Stephen Marcus."

"What?" stated Justin, obviously confused.

"You know, it started with my grandmother. She started calling me that. She was nice and she loved me considering that she was the mother of that bastard Jack. But Jack had Big John in him through and through that’s why he was the way he was but my Grandmother Rosemary she loved me and she started calling me that."

"Brian you’re making no sense. What did you take?"

"Ally. It’s a strong Irish name. You know it’s short for Aloysius. There were seven others in school with me and when it came to confirmation I got the name of St. Patrick. Ally Patrick. It was the perfect name if you wanted to disappear."

"Brian?"

"She was just this stupid little girl you know. I met her when you were with the fiddler. The first time death came to take me away. I wanted you, but I was being stupid. I wouldn’t give you what you wanted. I wouldn’t say what you wanted me to say. You knew, right? Right? I mean, you knew."

"Brian I’m so confused right now. Did you beat up Mel’s brother? Do you know who Ally Patrick is?"

"Me. That’s my name. That’s me. He and I are the same. I just wanted to be someone else and that name helped me be someone else. She didn’t know me. She didn’t know the ass that I am here. The person no one could love. The fucked-up person before you. I could go there and buy her things and spend time with her and forget about you here fucking the fiddler and my dad rotting in hell, and dear old Joan trying to save my soul. She saw me, you know and she loved me. I was her father. I was supposed to protect her and he’s sitting over there in that big house and she’s here dying and I couldn’t let that happen."

"What did you do?" Justin asked, as he washed the blood from Brian’s knuckles.

"I went over there and I knocked on his door and I asked for him and he came out and I beat the shit out of him. He is sitting there healthy and she is dying. She’s going to die and he doesn’t care… he doesn’t care.

"I’m sure he cares. He’s her father."

"She is going to die! All he has to do is give a bag of plasma and she could live forever but I’m supposed to believe that even though he knows how important this is for her, that him not giving her what she needs is fine because he still loves her. I don’t believe that shit. What has he done? I mean I’ve never told her but she has to know, right? Because of everything I’ve done she has to know? She has to know!"

Justin took a trembling Brian in his arms. He couldn’t believe the usually calm and collected man was falling apart with his head on his shoulder. He was comforting Brian. Brian needed him. He would be there for him.

"You know, right?" asked Brian.

"Yeah, I’ve always known, Brian. I know how you feel about me. It’s good to know that you feel it for someone else. I knew there had to be more to it. I knew that you couldn’t just be avoiding her out of spite."

"I love her so much. I don’t want her to die." Cried Brian losing all control he had left.

"It’s okay Brian. She’s going to be okay. If not I’m here for you. I love you." comforted Justin.

The Assistant Chapter 4

latoyacollins@yahoo.com — Wed, 07 Oct 2009 08:41:35 GMT

Title: The Assistant

Beta: My great friend Michelle

Summary: Brian has a new assistant. He's perfect and kind and everything anyone could want in an assistant and friend. There's just one problem. He wants Brian. He wants Brian badly and he will do whatever it takes to get him. Even if he has to get rid of a certain blonde.

Word Count: 1797

If You Need To Catch Up:

http://johnnysbiotch.livejournal.com/39705.html

Chapter 2: Harder Than I Thought )

( Chapter 1: Meet Patrick )

Patrick couldn’t believe that he had gotten this to work. He was on his way to Brian’s loft and Brian was sound asleep in the passenger side of his car. He had made a phone call to a lovely hotel and gotten reservations for Brian and Justin .Patrick then called Justin and told him where Brian wanted to meet him. By the time the poor bastard figured out what was up Patrick’d be in Brian’s bed, have his way with him and no one would ever know.

*****

Justin was thrilled when he got the phone call from Brian’s assistant saying that he had made reservations for them. Brian was trying his best to be romantic at times. Justin had come to terms with the way Brian was and he loved him. However, Brian wanted to prove that he could be the person that Justin wanted and he’d surprise him by doing something romantic. This was a good surprise. He had two more days to convince Brian that he belonged here in the Pitts and not in New York. That’s what he would do tonight- he would make Brian see it was time that he moved back to the Pitts.

*****

“Hey, where were you earlier?”asked Ben

“I went to see your dad.”

“Michael," scolded Ben.

“I just went to get rid of him like you said “

“How did that go?”

“He invited us to a big dinner tonight, and Ben I tried to tell him what you said, but if you would have seen him you'd have changed your mind. He was scared that you would turn him down, and hurt to think you would. So I promised that I’d do anything that I could to get you there tonight.”

“Oh really? Michael why should I do this? Why should I go and see a man who promised to be there for me when I needed him but wasn’t there at all? Why should I care what he wants?”

“To prove that you’re better than him," Michael said. To prove that even though you never had a father you still turned out to be a loving and decent human being.

“Fine.” Ben agreed reluctantly.

****
“What are you looking at?” Lindsay asked as she gently kissed her wife.

“I’m looking at the file of Patrick Davison. He’s an escaped mental patient. He was about to be released for good behavior, they actually thought they were getting to him but two nights before he was to be released he escaped. They fear that he’s going to go after his ex.”

“Wow, is this guy dangerous? Should we be afraid or doing things to be safe?”

“No, we don’t have to worry about him. He’s only after one guy and that’s George. He’s happily in a hospital three hours away. He’s with his partner, and we have a security detail on him. So no worries hun, we can all sleep soundly tonight.”

****

Patrick didn’t really know what to do. It was like he was a kid in a candy store but there were so many sweets he didn’t know which to try first. He was proud of himself for the stuff he’d given Brian. It kept you only awake enough to be slightly alert. Brian would be able to answer Patrick and he’d be aware of what was happening, but in the morning his mind would be wiped clean. The only bad thing about it was it was a bitch getting him to his loft alone.

Brian really couldn’t think straight. The last thing he remembered clearly was being in his office and then Justin came and helped him to the loft. Right?

“Justin?” Brian mumbled.

Patrick couldn’t help but hear Brian mumble Justin’s name. Then it hit him. This was wrong.
This was not what he wanted their first time to be like. It would be rape if he did it with him now. Patrick didn’t want to be a rapist. He wanted Brian to love him.

“Brian?” questioned Patrick.

“Brian do you see me? You realize it’s me right, you realize it’s me, Patrick? I brought your coffee, and got your dry cleaning? We shared that minute by the water cooler?” asked Patrick kissing him gently on the cheek.

After quickly undressing Brian. He looked down and saw Brian’s cock. It was hard as a rock and oozing of Pre Cum Patrick's mouth was watering, and he leaned down and licked it up with his tongue. It was beautiful, Brian tasted beautiful. The moan Brian let out, the way he spread his legs as if to invite Patrick in made Patrick want him badly. He took Brian’s left hand and placed it on his cock and Patrick begin to stroke him. Patrick loved it. He loved how what he gave Brian seemed to affect his libido. Brian was practically dry humping the bed. Patrick was horny and he wanted it just as bad as he did. But this was wrong. Patrick had to get out of there. He wanted it but not like this.

*****

Ben couldn’t believe that this was happening. He was in a huge banquet hall, sitting in an uncomfortable chair and everyone was looking at him. They were staring. He hadn’t seen his father since he was younger and had no idea they looked so much alike. It was undeniable though, considering all the giant photos of his father plastered all around. His father was being honored for all his work as a civil servant. Good thing they weren’t passing out father of year medals. He really just wanted to leave, or crawl in a hole and die. Why was he here again? Oh right, the ball and chain.

“Can we leave now?” Ben gently asked his partner.

“No, I got all dressed up and I don’t like tuxes. We came all the way here; don’t you want to know what he has to say? I thought I had talked you into all of this back at the house.”

“You did, but don’t you think there’s something off about all this? What’s with all the smiles? They are staring us down like I don’t like they are going to eat us or something.”

“Shh, your dad’s taking stage.”

Ben really took a look at the man taking stage and he wanted to hate him. How much every ache in his body wanted to hate him, but that was his father. He couldn’t help but get lost in the fact that it was his father and that all these people loved him for what he accomplished. He had to be good right? There had to be good in him. All these friends that he seemed to love, but why not for him.Why didn’t he love him? Another thought, what the fuck did his father want with him?

Ben couldn’t help it. He was getting caught up in the awe that was his father. He was a fantastic speaker and a part of him couldn’t help but realize that he was a lot like his father. He liked that fact. That even though they hadn’t been together a part of his father rubbed off on him. At the end of the speech he thanked Ben for being there. He said he wanted to thank his son Ben whom he hoped to get to know again after tonight. And he wanted to thank Chris who had been with him through all the good times and the bad. Ben had expected to see Christina, his father's assistant, but was shocked when he saw who Chris was

***
Justin tried telling himself not to be miffed but something was indeed off. Brian had invited him to this lovely hotel but he had yet to show up. He had called him time and time again but there was no answer. He was really starting to get worried and left the hotel and went to Brian's loft

“Brian are you here?” Justin shouted as he entered the loft.

He was shocked at what he found. All of Brian’s clothes were out as if he was about to shower and get ready but he was fast asleep in bed.

“Brian, are you sleeping?” asked Justin.

It was hard to stay mad at Brian we he came in and saw this. The man he loved curled up asleep in bed. It wasn’t even about sex; Justin just knew at that moment that he really did love this man. He took off his clothes and crawled in bed with Brian, closed his eyes, and in minutes he was sound asleep.
*************
“Damn it!” thought Patrick. How could he let this happen? He had totally mistimed things. Now he was hiding in the bathroom waiting for the guy he was stalking to get sound asleep with his lover so he could scurry away. Oh yes he, was definitely changing. Things weren’t going to be like it was with George, he'd thought.
Well, it wasn't. It was worse, far worse.

***

“So I’m guessing you’re stunned.” asked Benjamin Bruckner Sr.

“Well yeah, mom told me it was Christina your assistant that you had left her for. Now I come to find out that Chris is a him. The Chris I remember didn’t look like this.”

“Yeah, that was the whole point. When told your mother what I was, she made me hire Chris. She said it would seem better if I left her for my assistant, that people would understand and that was the kind of example she wanted to set for the community. She didn’t want anyone to know that I left her for a man.”

“Okay that explains that but what about me? Why’d you leave me?” asked Ben angrily.

“That was your mother. She thought that my lifestyle was wrong and that I would corrupt you if I were around. But looks like it happened on its own. She must’ve loved that.”

“She had a problem at first but she came to terms with it, right before she died.”

“How soon before?” Ben's father asked.

“About three months.”

“Ben, I know that I’ve been a bad father and it’s not just because of your mother. Just because she said for me to stay away I didn’t actually have to do it. I could’ve fought for us. I should’ve fought for us. So here I am asking you can I get that chance?”

“Yes, you can," Ben answered softly.

Melanie Discover Chapter 3

latoyacollins@yahoo.com — Tue, 29 Sep 2009 06:37:27 GMT

Title: Melaine Discovers

Beta: My girl Judy

Summary: Melanie's niece Morgan is moving to town. She's been having a rough time but she has a best friend Ally who has been helping her. Ally is very secretive and sweet and only thinks of her and this has gotten Melanie worried about his motives. What happens when he Melanie and this friend comes face to face? How will this affect the gang? And most importantly why is it that once everything comes out Brian and Justin's relationship will never be the same?

Word Count 1736

If You Need To Catch Up:

( Chapter 1: Meet Morgan and Ally )

( Chapter 2: Two Worlds Intwining )

“Theodore! A word!” Brian practically shouted as he entered his office first thing Monday morning.

“What is it, Bri?” questioned Teddy.

“Firstly, don’t call me that and secondly isn’t there a small fact you forgot to tell me about one Morgan Fairbanks a year ago when I asked for that favor.”

“No, I don’t think I forgot anything.”

“Okay, I realize now that is when you were starting your relationship with “Crystal” but I thought you’d done this favor long before that. You know Morgan. Isn’t there something you forgot to tell me about her paternity?”

“Brian, I didn’t think that mattered. I mean, you were having a blast with her and you were helping her. I thought that if I told you who she was that you’d backpedal and turn back into….” Teddy’s thoughts were shortened with one look from Brian.

“I just thought that if you found out that she was in fact Mel’s niece that might cloud your judgment. Besides she’s a great kid. We met her this weekend. Where were you?”

“I was puking my guts up. Thanks for asking, and of course I wouldn’t have changed my mind finding out she was Mel’s niece. But now we have the problem that she just moved here. How am I to handle this?”

“Are you asking my opinion?”

“Do I have to speak slowly for you? Are you back on the stuff? Yes, I’m asking you!”

“Well, in group they say that secrets are the key to your downfall. So I say use this as time to come clean.”

“Right. Come clean. I’m going to tell everyone about my relationship with this child. First they will never believe it and secondly it’s no one’s fucking business what I do with my time.”

“Brian, I think that everyone would be more understanding and actually like you a lot better if you showed them your softer side.”

“What am I a Sears? That’ll be all Theodore.”

Teddy wanted to say something to his friend. Over the last couple months Brian was the only one to give him a chance after the drug thing. Who would have thought he’d do that? Of course, it was because Brian needed something from him but he still gave him a chance - even after he stole all the money from Brian’s son. He wondered if the girls ever told him that. He wanted to tell him that people would understand but he was giving him that look again, so he just took the papers from Brian’s desk and walked away quietly.

Justin sat silently in Michael’s store, working on this month’s comic. He wanted to ask him. He knew that if anyone knew Michael would, because after all he was Brian’s best friend. He would know why he left and had traveled three hours away. Hell, maybe he was with him. Did he want to know though? That was the question because, well, maybe he didn’t want to know. Maybe the doctors had found yet something else that Brian was keeping it from him. Maybe this cancer would be the end of him. Maybe he was losing his mind ‘cause the guy with all the answers was inches away.

“What do you know about Brian’s trip a few days ago?” questioned Justin.

“What trip?” Michael asked.

“He went away the other day. He was supposed to have his treatment but he cancelled it and he went three hours out of town? What’s there?”

“How should I know?”

“Know, don’t not now. Okay, whatever. Is there something you need to tell me? Is it worse than he thought and he had to go to see someone else because I have the right to know?”

“I don’t know what you are talking about, Justin. He’s not telling me anything but there’s something.”

“Are you sure it’s not someone?”

“Oh come on, Justin. Brian would never do that. You were the one who….” Michael trailed off.

“I fucking know what I did Michael. Are you going to be throwing that in my fucking face forever?”

“I’m sorry, okay. If it’s any consolation I know what you’re talking about. I see it. And what was up with him not coming the other night to meet Morgan? I know that he can’t take seeing that but he’s going through it too. If we just tell….”

“No! Michael, he trusts us. We aren’t to tell anyone.”

“Well, I sort of….”

“Michael, how could you do something like that? Don’t you listen to the things that you’ve been told? He didn’t want you to tell anyone. Who did you….? He didn’t mean Ben, Michael. We knew that you would tell him. You were going to need someone to share this with or you’d go crazy, but no one else, got it?”

“Got it, and besides who else would I tell? My mother? She’s going through enough with Vic being gone. I don’t need her to start imagining the worst for Brian.”

“Thanks Michael. You are a good friend to Brian.”

“Thanks. I do what I can. I’m sorry about bringing the whole Ethan thing up again, and if you want I can be there for you as well.”

“Thanks Michael. Well, I’ll get the boards to you tonight. I’m going to head home. Hopefully he’ll be there taking it easy.”

“Yeah, let’s hope.”

“Jesus Ally, you look like shit!”

“Language, young Morgie, and besides I had radiation today, what’s your excuse?”

“Oh, you know the usual, being on my deathbed.”

“How many times have I told you that we are not going there?”

“Ally, it’s time you came to terms with it. I have and so has my mother. It’s going to be hard for my Aunt Mel and you. That’s why I wanted you to meet her family. They are nice, Ally and they’ll take care of you. That’s the kind of people they are.”

“Oh yes, you got to meet Liberty’s finest. Did Deb come in her best wig? Did she wear what she likes to believe was a toned-down rendition of her usual bright self, but looking directly at her caused serious trauma to the retinas?”

“You know Deb?” asked Morgan.

“Why the hell have you not been answering my calls?” shouted one Joan Kinney as she busted into Ally’s office with Ted on her heels.

“Sorry, I couldn’t stop her.” announced Ted.

“It’s fine.” replied Brian.

“Ally, is this your mother?” questioned Morgan.

“Ally? I haven’t heard anyone call you that since…”

“What can I do for you, mom?” asked Brian, cutting her off.

“I was just wondering if you will be able to join me this Sunday morning for Mass.”

“You came all the way down here to ask me a ridiculous question like that? Don’t you already know the answer?”

“Oh Ally, you should go to Mass with your mother. I’d love to go.” chimed in Morgan.

“No one asked you now, did they?” shouted Brian causing Morgan to jump.

“Mom, if you don’t mind Morgie and I were having some important time together now so if you would just---”

“Who is this girl?”

“I’m Morgan, Morgan Fairbanks. I’m friends with Ally.”

“A bit young, don’t you think, Brian? Although at least this one is a young woman…unlike the last time. A bit bald but hey, some guys like that.”

“She has Cancer, mother. Now, could you leave before you say something else to make you look like an ass?”

“I’m sorry, young lady.”

“You’re his mother?”

“Why yes. I’m Joan Ki---”

“Mother, she has to go!” shouted Brian, cutting off his mother.”

“You and I will talk later, Morgan. Meet me here. I have something for you.”

“What?”

“It’s a surprise. Meet me here around five and I’ll take you on a little trip.”

“Okay, later Ally.”

“Later.”

“Now that I have you alone, the first question is when were you going to tell me?”

“Tell you what mother?”

“Don’t play coy with me, young man. I went down to that place where your father was and I saw you. I saw you coming out of there.”

“Come to save my soul before I die, mother?”

“Yes, it’s not too late. It’s not too late to accept our Lord and Savior. If you repent now son, you will not burn in the fiery pits of Hell. It’s not too late, Brian.”

“Yes it is. It’s too late for me. You don’t have enough holy water or scripture to change that, mother. Now get out.” he shouted, practically throwing her from his office.

“Brian, talk to me. Let me in. I’m your mother and I love you. Who was that girl? She called you ‘Ally’? You haven’t let anyone call you that since...”

“Enough, mother!” he shouted, finally slamming the door in her face.

“And this has no affect on you!” screamed Melanie.

“No! So he didn’t show up. Morgan still had a good time and we all had a good time so why does it matter to you that Brian didn’t show up?”

“Because no matter what’s on Deb makes sure that we go and he couldn’t do this for me. That’s why, you know. If it was someone from your side of the family he would’ve been right here, but because it was someone from my side of the family he was nowhere in sight. Damn him.”

“Where are you going?”

“To give Brian Kinney a piece of my mind” she announced, slamming the door behind her.

“I need a favor.” announced Brian as he walked into Red Cape Comics.

“And a hello to you too. I’m fine, thanks for asking.” Michael said sarcastically.

“I’m sorry. Hello, how are you?”

“I’m good.”

“Great! Now about that favor. I need for you to cover for me if you hear from anybody in the next hour or so.”

“Why? Where are you going?”

“That’s none of your business, dear Michael. But if Justin asks, you and I are together and I’m throwing up in the bathroom or something like that. He probably won’t call but just in case.”

“I don’t know, Brian. He’s becoming suspicious of you.”

“Suspicious? In what way?”

“I think he thinks you have a man on the side.”

“Really?”

“Really.”

“Fuck it! If he calls you haven’t fucking seen me!” Brian shouted, slamming the door behind him.

“Oh dear.” said Michael to no one in particular.

Doctor Who: Run Vidlet

latoyacollins@yahoo.com — Thu, 24 Sep 2009 07:57:59 GMT

Check out my new Who vid.

Totally love the way it turned out. Should i vid the whole song?

ATTENTION QAF FANS

latoyacollins@yahoo.com — Thu, 17 Sep 2009 16:15:55 GMT

ATTENTION QAF FANS THIS IS THE FIRST TIME I'VE MADE A QAF VID IN AGES. SHALL I CONTINUTE?

Melanie Discovers Chapter 2

latoyacollins@yahoo.com — Fri, 11 Sep 2009 08:57:07 GMT

Title: Melaine Discovers

Beta: My girl Judy

Summary: Melanie's niece Morgan is moving to town. She's been having a rough time but she has a best friend Ally who has been helping her. Ally is very secretive and sweet and only thinks of her and this has gotten Melanie worried about his motives. What happens when he Melanie and this friend comes face to face? How will this affect the gang? And most importantly why is it that once everything comes out Brian and Justin's relationship will never be the same?

Word Count 2435

If You Need To Catch Up:

http://johnnysbiotch.livejournal.com/39673.html

It was Saturday and Melanie was on her way to her sister-in-law’s house to help her get everything packed up. Today would be the day she took me to Ally. It was amazing how Amy went on and on about how this guy had bought Morgan a ‘Convertible’ for her birthday. It was black, sleek, had all the bells and whistles and it wasn’t leased. He had paid for it in cash. Melanie really tried to find the goodness in people but being a lawyer she knew what people were all about. As far as she was concerned a young man helping out a young woman and her small child only wanted one thing and he wasn’t going to get that. Not from Amy and definitely not from Morgan.

Morgan stood outside the Oncology room looking in on Ally. Ally was so brave sometimes it really amazed her. He hated being inside of that thing because he was claustrophobic. He didn’t know that she was there waiting for him. It was to be a surprise. She had found out he had an appointment and she was going to tell him that she was moving to the Pitts for good and that they could be a family now. She couldn’t wait to meet all his family and friends and for him to meet hers. She remembered the first time she and Ally had talked about family…..

Flashback:

“So let’s talk about family.” Morgan asked, setting up her camera in front of Ally.

“What? That’s not what I agreed to when I decided that I would be a part of your little movie.”

“Oh, come on Ally! Just one thing, who’s the most important person in your family?”

“No one. Blood is not what makes a family. If I woke up this morning and my family was gone I wouldn’t care, because truth be told if they woke up this morning and I was gone they wouldn’t care either, so we’d be even.”

“I can relate to that. I told you that my dad could care less about me but it’s fine because I have my Uncle Mel and Aunt Lindsay. They love me for me.”

“Let’s not forget me, Morgie. You’ve got me. From now on whatever you need, whenever you need it.”

Brian sat completely still trying to calm his nerves. It wasn’t the fact that he might become radioactive when all of this was over that made Brian nervous about the whole cancer thing. It was being stuck in this machine that made him nervous. He hated it and never liked to be boxed in. It made him think of awful times with his father throwing him in a closet and not letting him out till morning. He wondered if this was how his father received his poison that was supposed to save his life. Well, we all know how that turned out in the end. He let them do what they wanted to and in the end nothing saved him. Would that be his fate?

“You know the routine, Mr. Kinney. You may feel fine now but around noon you’ll hit a wall. I suggest taking the rest of the day off.”

“Thanks nurse, I’ll keep that in mind.”

“It’s good to see that you’re not alone today, a pretty little girl is waiting for you in the waiting area.”

“What?” shouted Brian, jumping off the table.

“What are you doing here?” shouted Brian, pulling Morgan to the side.

“That’s certainly not the greeting I was looking for, Ally. Aren’t you surprised to see me?”

“Yeah I am. What are you doing here? How did you find me?”

“I called that number you gave me, and that guy Theodore answered and told me where to find you. He’s weird, you know. At first it was like he didn’t even know who I was talking about.”

“You still haven’t told me what the hell you’re doing here?”

“Oh I didn’t get to tell you but my mom and I are moving here. We got a little place right down the way from my Aunt Melanie’s place. In fact she and my mom and Mel’s wife Lindsay are moving right now.”

“Who… and what… now?” asked Brian, hoping that he was hearing her wrong.

“My aunt Mel is helping my mom move into our new place right now. I’m supposed to be helping them but I told them I was going to come and get you. So come on, let’s go.”

“I thought you told me you had an Uncle Mel?”

“It’s a joke that we have because she’s a lesbian. I call her Uncle Mel and her wife Aunt Lindsay. Oh Ally, I can’t wait for you to meet them. They’re going to love you.”

“I doubt that.” Brian stated under his breath.

“What was that?” asked Morgan.

“I can’t go, Morgie. I would love to really, but I’ve got go back to work. I told you about Kinney. He doesn’t like it when I stay away from work too long and we’ve got big projects coming up. So I’m going to have to go back to the office, then I’ll probably go and crash. So I’ll have to meet your family later on.”

“Well, maybe I could go with you and take care of you. My mom won’t mind.”

“No! I’m fine, really and besides Justin will be there. So just go home and be with your family. We’ll catch up.”

“Ally, if I didn’t know any better I would think that you were trying to get rid of me. What’s the matter? Did I do something wrong?”

“No! I was just...you know… shocked that you showed up. It’s a lot to take in but I’m happy. Okay. Well, I got to go but don’t worry, we’ll have lunch.” he said, practically running away.

Brian hadn’t realized how long he had been walking until he began to feel tired. He didn’t mean to turn down Morgie’s offer but things were changing now. It was better when she was just some kid he had met one time and he could go to her to escape and be sort of himself but now things were different. She was about to be part of the fold. She was going to meet his family. Before it all was over she would probably hate him. He wasn’t ready to lose that. He stopped to rest on a bench in the park, taking out his cell phone.

“Hello?” answered the receiver.

“Yeah, it’s me. Could you come and get me?”

“Brian? Where are you?”

“I’m about a block from the diner.”

“Brian, couldn’t you just walk?” asked Michael.

“No, I don’t think I can make it.”

“Sit tight. I’ll be right there.” replied Michael, hanging up his phone.

Ben was trying to find the perfect shirt to wear out today. He and Michael hadn’t had much time alone together with taking in Hunter then before that when he was angry about the whole Brett Keller thing. He wanted to show Michael that he was proud of him and that’s what this late lunch was for. The two of them would go somewhere and be alone together without the gang or anybody - just the two of them.

“Hey Ben, is it okay if I meet you at the restaurant?” shouted Michael from the doorway.

“I thought we were going to go together. What’s the matter?”

“That was Brian on the phone. I don’t know. Something’s up. He had his radiation earlier today He’s about a block from the diner and for some reason he asked me to come and pick him up.”

“Michael, he’s a block away from the diner. Just call Justin and he can go and get him.”

“Ben, he called for me. He doesn’t want to bother Justin, he wants me. He needs me. I think there’s more to it. Can I please meet you at the restaurant? I promise I won’t be late?”

“Fine Michael, I’ll see you there and give Brian my best.”

“Thanks for understanding, Ben. I don’t think I’m going to tell Brian I told you yet though. I don’t want to upset him. You understand don’t you?”

“Of course. Go get him. I’ll meet you there.”

Ben watched his lover walk away and he tried his best not to feel dejected and hurt but he couldn’t help it. He and Michael had been planning this for a couple of days and one call from Brian who is feet from his own boyfriend and he ups and goes. Maybe he should try and understand that Brian has cancer and this could be some of his very last moments on earth but for some reason that just made the whole situation even worse and made him even madder.

Melanie was almost done unpacking her niece’s room when she walked in and crashed on her bed.

“What the matter?” Melanie asked, concerned.

“I drove all the way out to the hospital to see him and I don’t think he was happy to see me.”

“What did he say?”

“I invited him to come and meet you but he said ‘no.’ He said he had to work, that Kinney wouldn’t let him off.”

“Kinney?” Melanie questioned.

“Yeah, your Brian Kinney. He’s his boss. He’s a copywriter at Kinnetik and apparently Brian Kinney doesn’t give a rat’s ass that Ally is sick or anything and today right after his session he had to get back to work. Isn’t that awful? I just hope that his boyfriend can take care of him because he didn’t even want me there, Mel.”

“I don’t think it’s that, sweetheart. Didn’t you say you surprised him at his treatment? This is his second bout with cancer. Maybe he just hates you seeing him like that. Then coming out and seeing you just caught him off guard.”

“Do you really think that is the case? You’re probably happy. I know you think that he’s only after one thing but you don’t know Ally like I do. He’s kind and he doesn’t have anybody and he doesn’t want anything from me!”

Melanie decided to keep her thoughts on one Ally to herself for a minute and just comfort the niece that her brother wanted nothing to do with.

“You’ll see. I’ll prove you just caught him off guard. Call him and invite him to our place tonight. We’ll have a big party today introducing you to the folks on Liberty. It’s time you met the rest of the family.”

“Really?”

“Yeah, go ahead and give him a call and I’ll start on the food.

Melanie watched as her niece left the room happily. Yeah, she would invite everyone over and they would all get to meet her, but she would also get to see this Ally herself. Then he would have to answer a few questions.

Michael helped his friend to bed and continued to fuss over him despite the look of death on his friend’s face. He was worried about him. For a few seconds when he found Brian it was almost as if he didn’t know who he was or where he was. He had been doing his research and he knew that Brian had been diagnosed with Anemia. That could cause some crazy things in a person.

“Are you okay? Maybe I should call your doctor or Justin. He’s going to flip if he finds out you were so close and didn’t call him.”

“Justin is helping Deb today and he would have left her without a waiter. She wouldn’t have minded but I would. I don’t need a fucking babysitter. Now get going!”

“What! You don’t expect me to leave you here by yourself, do you?”

“That’s exactly what I expect you to do, now get. I know what you and the professor have planned today. You’ve been talking about it all week and it won’t be because of me that you don’t show up. Now go Mikey. I don’t need anyone..!

Michael looked at his friend as the beads of sweat began to show on his brow. He looked as if he’d throw up at any moment and he knew that Brian being Brian was trying to hold it in until he left so he wouldn’t argue, he’d leave.

“Fine, but you only have until I get home because then I’m calling Justin.”

“Fine! Just give me that time, okay?”

“Okay.

Melanie did as promised. She had invited everyone over to meet her niece. Everyone agreed to come. Michael and Ben would be late because they had a special evening planned and Justin confirmed that he would drag Brian there so everyone would get to meet Morgan. She promised that she would be on her best behavior and when she met Ally she would kindly thank him for the things that he had done for her family. But it was now time for her to take over where her brother should have left off.

“What’s the matter?” Melanie asked Morgan as she entered the room, obviously upset.

“He’s sick and he can’t come. So you just need to call everyone and tell them that there’s no need for them to come because I can’t meet them today.”

“I will do no such thing Morgan. I did this for you and all of my friends have rearranged their day so that they could meet you. So you will go upstairs and put on your wig and be prepared for our friends.”

“I don’t wear a wig anymore. Ally taught me that I’m beautiful and if you can’t accept that, well, I don’t care!” Morgan stated, even more upset.

“It’s fine. I don’t want you to think that I don’t like Ally. I know that you’re disappointed now because he couldn’t make it. But you said yourself that he was in radiation today so maybe he just isn’t well enough.”

“Exactly, that’s why I want to go to him.”

“Do you even know where he lives?”

“No. But he works at Kinnetik and I have the number for some ‘Ted’ guy, so I can ask him.”

“See, you’re in luck. Ted is one of the folks coming tonight. So you can ask him if he knows him. You can also ask Brian Kinney, he owns Kinnetik and he will know him.”

“Good! I’m finally going to come face to face with that guy. I can’t wait. It’s time I gave him a piece of my mind for the way he treats Ally.”

“Well, that’s something I can’t wait to see.”

latoyacollins@yahoo.com — Thu, 10 Sep 2009 06:38:19 GMT

SOMETIMES PEOPLE CAN REALLY SUCK...

THAT IS ALL.

The Assistant Chapter 3

latoyacollins@yahoo.com — Mon, 07 Sep 2009 07:29:01 GMT

Justin heard the alarm clock sound and he didn’t want to get up. He rolled over to see Brian still asleep. He looked him up and down ,trying to make sure that Brian had been eating and was healthy. After the whole cancer thing he was not taking any chances. He didn’t want to loose Brian So much had happened. He had gotten Brian Kinney to plan a wedding and agree to marry him and he turned it down. Now that was something that no one would believe. He closed his eyes as he felt Brian begin to awaken.

***

Brian awoke with a start. He had a nightmare. He hadn’t had one in a very long time, not one like this.

In it someone was trying to hurt Justin. Right after Justin was bashed he used to dream constantly of Hobbs coming back and finishing the job. After Justin’s stint with the Pink Posse those dreams had subsided . Now they were back. He wondered what had brought that on.

****************************

Patrick sat quietly in the back booth at The Liberty Diner, just taking it all in. Everyone was out and proud here. It wasn’t like that in South Carolina where he’d come from. He and George had to keep their love a secret, they most definitely couldn’t be out in public like this. George wanted what they had to be secret. Funny how that changed once he met Pete. Once George and Pete got together George didn’t care who saw him and then I had too---- it no longer bothered George what people thought. That was when he had to

*********

Patrick was startled back to reality when he heard a voice speaking to him.

“Hey there cutie, I don’t believe I’ve ever seen you in here” Deb said,excitedly.

“No, I just moved here. Brian seems to come here a lot so I just thought I’d check it out.

“You know Brian?” questioned Deb.

"Yeah, I'm his new assistant. Cynthia is away on maternity leave. So I’ve been taking care of Brian for the time being.”

“Well,will you accept a little advice from someone who knows Brian better than anyone?”

“Yeah, sure.”

“Well don’t be afraid of him. He loves to initimidate, so as long as you show him you're not afraid of him you'll be ok,sweetie."

“Okay.”

“Oh, and as long as you’re nice to Justin it’s nothing but smooth sailing I’m going to go and get you some breakfast ,okay?"

“Okay.”

Patrick watched as the woman who’s nametag read. He was going at things the wrong way.

He wanted to kill Justin and then console Brian, but he couldn’t do it abruptly. First he would have to befriend the child and gain his trust. Then he could make his move. Justin would be dead,and he could make his move on Brian.Now that was a plan.

People would be happy that he helped Brian move on,and there'd be no suspicion that he was responsible for Justin's death.,,It wouldn't be like it was with George. He'd be more clever this time.

******

The silent treatment was killing Michael. Ben had shut down and refused to talk to him ever since Michael had told him what he'd done the night before. he had to know what was going on. You don't really

“Okay, are you going to say something or not?” asked Michael.

“What is there to say?” replied Ben

“I know that I may have overstepped, but what did I do that was so wrong?"

“You went behind my back and found my father. You want us to have a happy reunion ,but what about when you met your father?”

“I never met my dad! You know that my dad died when I---"

“Oh, come off of it Michael!” shouted Ben.

“We all know that when Devina Devore came to town you found out he was your dad. You saw it,we all saw it, You said you would keep in touch but you didn’t .He was never seen or heard from again . Now you’re trying to reunite me with my father! What is bringing this on?”

“I don’t know anything about your family,"Michael said. "You keep everything about your life a secret. I know absolutely nothing about you.”

“So what, you think I’m full of secrets? If that’s the case then why did you marry me?”

“Brian and Justin are trying to get to know each other better. Justin actually started sharing things with Brian about his life,and Brian has told Justin things that I don’t even know. I want that.”

“Fine! You what to know why I hate my father? When I was twelve years old he left my mom for his fucking secretary. He said that he’d still be there for me if I needed anything he’d be there for me. But you know whatI? I didn’t see him until twelve years later, and then when he saw me and Paul he had a look of pure disgust on his face!"

Michael just stood in silence as Ben stormed out. Maybe he had done the wrong thing. Now he had to think of a way to get out of going to this dinner.

****

Patrick couldn’t take it. He had been at work all day and Brian had yet to come out of his office. All he wanted was to get a quick glimpse of his face but Brian was hard at work and said that he wouldn’t not be coming out. He also needed to find a way to get into Brian's office when Brian was not around.

When Patrick saw him leave the office he knew that this would be his chance. He waited until he saw Brian enter the elevator, then took a stack of papers and headed for Brian’s office.

Brian's office was everything that he expected. Very sleek and modern. There were two odd items,though-an easy chair and a futon in the corner. Patrick remembered that Brian was sick once. Maybe he would take naps in the office? Yeah, that was a good thought. Then Patrick thought of Brian having sex with the blond one on that futon. He quickly erased that thought from his mind before he did something awful. Next place to explore was Brian’s private bathroom.

He entered the bathroom and it was very spacious. Brian had the standard toilet and a urinal. He also had a huge walk in shower. Patrick entered and picked up the soap and smelled it.. It smelt just like Brian, a sweet vanilla with a hint of musk. He was just about to leave the office when he heard voices and ducked down behind the sofa in Brian’s office.

“So how did you do?” asked Brian.

“Well I just got off the phone with my agent and I sold four paintings. See, I sold four Brian and I wasn’t even there.! Doesn’t that prove to you that I don’t have to be in New York to be successful? Don’t you miss me?”

“I will not be blamed when you come home too early and you are no longer successful,. New York is where you need to be now. Besides, we are fine with the way things are now.”

Justin loved the new Brian. When they were alone he was sweet, innocent, and loving. He was the perfect boyfriend. He didn’t even care that when they were around their friends Brian turned back into the big bad ass they all knew .Deep down Justin knew the real Brian and that was all that mattered.

“Well, did you hear what I said?” questioned Justin.

“What?”

“I sold four and you know what that means," replied Justin with a smile on his face.

“What ever do you mean Sunshine?”

“When I sell at least four paintings I get to have you. Any way I want you.”

“Yeah I don’t know about that Justin. I think I pulled something, and I never thought that---”

“No excuses!” shouted Justin cutting Brian off

"Now! I want you right here,right now.”

“Fine.” replied Brian.

Brian liked teasing Justin. The old him would never bottom for anyone and he wouldn’t for anyone else. Justin is different,though. Justin mattered.Truth be told, he hadn’t felt Justin inside him in three months and couldn’t wait to feel Justin inside him again.

Justin knew that Brian wanted this just as much as he did. The key was trying to make Brian beg for it. Brian wasn’t a beggar but Justin craved to hear him say yes, or, please do it now. Justin had gotten Brian to do it once but a lot of alcohol was involved and Brian definitely wasn’t in his right mind.

Justin slowly walked toward Brian, anticipating what was about to happen. Brian undid the fly of his pants and took out his cock. Just the look of it instantly made Justin hard and he straddled Brian while laying simple butterfly kisses down his chest.

***

Patrick couldn’t believe his luck. He was stuck in Brian’s office and he was going to have to watch the kid sticking it to Brian. He would vomit right then and there if he wouldn’t risk being caught. Oh yes,he would have to set his plan into motion. It was time that he got some up close, and personal time with Brian.

****

Michael couldn’t help but feel intimidated as he waited outside of Ben’s father’s office. His father was one of the D.A’s. Maybe she didn’t have to deal with him. He didn’t know how he was going to get out of this but after what Ben had told him maybe this was the kind of man that he didn’t want to get to know. It was weird ,though. When Michael had met Mr. Bruckner,he seemed genuine and real. He shook his hand and looked at him right in the face. He usually could tell if a guy was a homophobe. His mother had told him all the signs and so did Brian. He knew the way the people were when he was working at The Big Q. Michael really didn’t know what to think as he entered Ben Bruckner’s office.

“Michael my boy, it’s good to see you. I was shocked when my secretary told me you were here,” he said a little bit to friendly for Michael’s taste.

“Yeah Mr. Bruckner, I think I spoke too soon about the dinner. I don’t think Ben and I can make it.”

“Oh? Why is that?”

“Oh, well he's teaching and working on a new book,. He said that he would love to see you again but doesn't know when he’ll have the time.”

“Michael, you do realize who you’re talking to,right? I’m trained to spot a liar, so why don’t you tell me what’s really going on here?”

“Well ,he doesn’t feel that you want to see him. When I came here the other day you told me what had happened between you and Ben. You didn’t tell me what you did to his mother. I can understand why he wouldn't want to see you under the circumstances. I mean, he was twelve years old and he needed a dad . You weren't there for him like you promised you would be. I know when I was twelve I would’ve killed for a father. I just don’t understand if you were given a choice how you could do such a thing!"

"Things are not what they seem Michael. It’s time that I make things right, something that I should have done a long time ago.I was following Ben’s mother’s wishes, but I know now that it had to be the biggest mistake ever. Please, just do what you can to bring him to dinner tonight. He doesn’t have to stay long and he doesn’t have to dress up. Just make sure that you both come. I'd like for both of you to come.”

Michael tried his best to see if he could find any signs of this guy lying to him and all he saw was hurt. He wanted to know the full story to all of this. He had to know it. Michael took the card from Ben’s father’s hands and promised to make sure Ben got there. He would, he would get Ben there no matter what.

*****

Melanie Marcus looked in on her sleeping son and thought to herself, “Why am I back here?” She knew why, but she'd never admit it. She missed the Pitts. Also, Brian Kinney called her one night and told her how much he missed his son. He told her he’d do just about anything to make her come back. That was reason enough to come back but then she got offered a job as a District Attorney and thought to herself that maybe things were looking up. That was until she got the case of one Patrick Davison.

Now, he was a character.

***

Patrick was silently berating himself over the big screw up he had just made. Brian was standing at his desk screaming "Evans", and it took him forever to realize that was the last name he was supposed to have.

Poor Evans, he was a nice kid and his apartment was great.

Brian had wanted some coffee and when no one was looking Patrick put in his special brew. Oh yes, he and Brian would have there alone time soon.

****

Brian didn’t know what that stupid assistant of his problem was but he knew that if the coffee he gave him wasn’t so damn good he’d be fired by now. Ever since Justin left he had a bit of a headache. Everyone had already left for the day;only he and Patrick were left in the office..He must’ve been on his third cup of coffee when he felt a little woozy. He stood up to call someone.

Brian's last thought before everything went dark was his cup hitting the floor.

**********

Patrick slowly opened the door to Brian’s office. He found his sleeping beauty on the floor. He walked over making sure none of the glass touched him. Patrick thought to himself just how easy this was. This would be the first night they have with each other. It would be special and Brian would never forget

Melanie Discovers Chapter 1

latoyacollins@yahoo.com — Sat, 05 Sep 2009 18:26:51 GMT

I promise this story to someone almost a month ago if not a month. I hope the story was worth the wait here's the first chapter

Title: Melaine Discovers

Beta: My girl Judy

Summary: Melanie's niece Morgan is moving to town. She's been having a rough time but she has a best friend Ally who has been helping her. Ally is very secretive and sweet and only thinks of her and this has gotten Melanie worried about his motives. What happens when he Melanie and this friend comes face to face? How will this affect the gang? And most importantly why is it that once everything comes out Brian and Justin's relationship will never be the same?

Word Count 2189

Morgan Fairbanks sat in her bedroom writing in her journal. She tried her best not to let it get to her that today was her birthday and she was home alone. She understood that because her father was a tool that her mom had to work just so they would have enough money to survive but sometimes she wished that her life just didn’t suck. She didn’t have a father and this would probably be her last birthday on this earth. She was torn from her sadness by the phone ringing.

“Hello.” she answered in her most cheerful voice.

“Morgie. Happy birthday, girl. Tell me? What are you doing?” asked her caller.

“Oh you know, I’m about to put on my most fabulous dress and go out with the girls and have a blast on my birthday.” she answered sarcastically.

“Come on Morgie. It can’t be that bad can it? Where’s your mom?”

“Mom had to work today. I’m not bitter if that’s what you’re thinking. I know how things have to be but I just, well I wish that things could be different.”

“Okay, remember what we talked about? If you could get anything for your birthday, what would that be?”

“NO WAY!!!” She screamed in his ear.

“Get your ass downstairs girl, I’m freezing.”

Morgan hung up her phone and ran downstairs, because if what she thought was waiting downstairs for her was waiting then this was going to be one of the best birthdays ever.

Melanie Marcus sat in her office looking at the files in front of her. For once this wasn’t a case that she was excited about winning. It was the medical records of her niece Morgan. Morgan’s cancer was back again. This time it looked like it might be her last and her asshole of a brother wasn’t helping at all. She had talked to Morgan’s mother and apparently there was a new guy in her life. She knew nothing about him, but her sister-in-law was coming up for a visit and she was going to get to the bottom of this.

“You look worried.” stated Lindsay as she walked into her wife’s office.

“I am. I’m still not sure about this new friend of Amy’s.” stated Melanie.

“Oh come on, the poor guy seems harmless. She met him at her treatments and he’s nice to her. The poor guy has cancer and Amy wouldn’t let anyone around her daughter who would hurt her. You of all people know that, Mel.”

“I know Lindz, but things will be better when they’re here where I can see her and look after her.”

“Yeah, soon she’ll be here and you won’t have to worry about that friend of hers.

Justin Taylor sat at the loft trying his best to not think about what he was doing. He had to do this, Brian was entrusting him with a secret. A secret that only he, Brian and one other person knew but it was a big step. This was his life, and by Brian trusting him with this secret he knew that he wanted him to be a big part of it. All he had to do was make it through this lunch with his mother.

“Honey, you’ve been quiet. Is everything alright?” asked a concerned Jen.

“Everything is fine. I was just thinking about something.” replied Justin.

“You know if you need someone to talk to about Brian I’m here. At first I was a bit skeptical about the two of you but over the years I’ve seen that you two love each other very much. If there’s anything that I can do to help, let me know.”

Justin looked at his mother a long time and then he decided that he could ask her without revealing the situation.

“Mom, if you were in love with someone and they asked you to keep a huge secret that could change lives, would you do it?”

Jen looked deep into the pleading eyes of her son and she knew right then he needed an answer and she knew just what that answer was.

“Honey, if it’s someone who loves you and you love them back, well then you will keep their secret for as long as they need you to.”

“You’re right, mom.” replied Justin as he began eating his spaghetti.

Ally Patrick stood outside Morgan’s house trying to keep a smile on his face because he knew any minute she would come bouncing out of the house for the surprise of her life. He hated what was happening to her and if there was any way that he could change what was happening to her he would. If God would let him switch places with her he would gladly, but then again in this case it wasn’t like he was in much better shape than her. He thought back to the day he met her.

Flashback

Morgan Fairbanks sat on the bed in her small space thinking about what was being pumped through her body. She had cancer. She wasn’t going to let it get to her though. It wasn’t going to kill her. She was going to beat this.

“Hey Morgan, do you mind if we let Mr. Patrick here share a space with you? He’s had a bit of a rough day?” asked a nurse, pulling a gurney into her small space with a body on it that was completed covered.

“No, I don’t mind. What’s the matter with him?” asked Morgan concerned.

“He just had a very strong dose of radiation. He didn’t expect it to hit him so hard so quickly but it did and well, he’s having a bit of trouble with photosensitivity right now so could you just be quiet and try not to bother him, please. That means turn your camera off. I don’t think this one wants to be filmed.”

“Sure thing, Nurse Betty. I’ll be very quiet.

Morgan waited for the nurse to be gone and then she slowly and very quietly eased off her bed and over to the gurney that sat in her small room.

“Hey Mister.” Morgan called out, tapping the cover and getting no reply.

“Hey Mister, are you okay? You’re making some weird noises. Should I get a nurse?”

“Didn’t she say for you to leave me alone kid, so fuck off!” shouted the guy as he uncovered his head.

“What the hell is your problem?” shouted Morgan.

Ally Patrick uncovered his head to say something surely rude and crude to the girl but one look at her sweet, innocent face and he took back the ugly words on the tip of his tongue.

“Just a bad day, kid. You know how it is.” Ally stated.

“Yeah. No worries. Where’s your family. Are you here all alone?”

“Yeah. I don’t need anyone around here watching me get pumped with poison.”

“It’s okay, I’ll keep you company.”

“Oh my god!” screamed Morgan, breaking Ally from his train of thought.

“I cannot believe that you did this for me! Are you freakin’ serious?” she squealed.

“Every girl should have the car of her dreams on her sixteenth birthday. I remembered everything you said and I hope this is to your liking, sweet Morgie.” Ally beamed.

“It’s perfect.” Morgan stated, beginning to cry.

“Hey! None of that. This is a happy day.” said Ally, taking Morgan into his arms.

“I know. It’s just that I never thought I would get something this wonderful on my birthday, and especially not from someone who is not my father. Oh Ally! I love it but I can’t accept it! You must need this money for something. What about your son? You shouldn’t waste your money on someone like me.”

“It’s fine, and don’t you worry about my son. He has what he needs now. It’s my turn to spoil my daughter. So take me for a spin?”

“Hell yeah!” screamed Morgan, heading for the driver’s seat.

Michael paced the small aisle in his store feeling scared out of his mind. He was supposed to pick up Brian today from his treatment but when he went there, they said that he cancelled. That was something that he shouldn’t be doing. Why would he cancel? Just the thought of that had Michael on edge. What was going on? He was deep in thought so he never heard Ben enter the store.

“Penny for your thoughts?” stated Ben, sneaking up being Michael and putting his arms around him.

“Oh it’s nothing. I was just thinking about something.”

“I know you’ve been thinking about ‘something’ a lot lately. Is it the whole Brett Keller thing? I told you that I’m over that and we should just put that behind us.”

“No, it’s not that. I just… well… it’s Brian actually.”

“Brian? What has he done now?” Ben asked bitterly.

“I was supposed to give him a ride someplace today and when I got there they said that he had cancelled, that he decided not to show up.”

“Well, maybe he had something better to do.”

“No, he couldn’t have something better to do when it comes to things to do. This is the most important.”

“Michael, what’s going on? Tell me. You’re upset.”

“I can’t. I promised. I made a promise to him but if I don’t tell someone right now I’m going to go crazy.”

“What is it?” Ben asked, very upset.

“It’s Brian. Brian has cancer, Ben and I’m so scared that he’s not going to make it.

Ben didn’t quite know what to say. Brian was sick with something real. Cancer! It made him remember Brian’s appearance lately. He was on edge and had lost weight. He remembered how drawn even his face seemed the last time he saw him. He didn’t know what to say. All he did was hold his disheveled lover, trying his best to comfort him.

Morgan looked at herself in the mirror and she couldn’t stop the smile from appearing on her face. Ally always knew how to make things better. He had bought her a car. A freakin’ convertible so that she could feel the wind in her hair. How hysterical was that! She had no hair. She went with him to get a haircut. He had it all buzzed off. Just a little flip in the top. None on the sides or back. He was adorable. He was always adorable with his beautiful, hazel eyes and olive skin. She couldn’t help it. She was so in love with Ally it was ridiculous. But he was gay, and like her dad. He was perfect in every way and the best kind of person that anyone would want for a dad and he had elected himself hers. For that she would always be grateful. She had so much fun with him that she didn’t even get a chance to tell him that she was moving to the Pitts. She couldn’t wait to see the look on his face when he found out that she was moving to his neck of the woods.

Justin was frantic. He could barely get the door to the loft open. He couldn’t reach his mother all day and then when he checked his messages he had this strange message from Michael about how Brian had cancelled his treatment for the day. That was something he can’t be doing. The radiation is hard enough and not to mention he just found out he was anemic. He was practically shouting Brian’s name when he entered the loft.

“Brian!” he shouted.

“Brian, do you fucking hear me!” he shouted louder, getting more scared.

He saw the partitions around the bed were closed. Just something about them being closed made his blood turn cold. He walked up the three steps and pulled them back and was taken aback by what he saw.

Brian was asleep under the covers. He was beautiful. He had sweat beading on his forehead. That was a problem lately. Brian suffered from night sweats. He approached the bed and brushed the hair back from his brow. He took note that Brian’s hair was much shorter now. Brian’s eyes popped open.

“Hey” he whispered hoarsely, a sign that he’d been asleep for a while.

“What’s the matter? Michael called me and told me you didn’t go today. Are you okay?”

“I’m fine. I just had something more important to do today.”

“What?” Justin enquired.

“Nothing for you to worry about.” Brian stated, closing his eyes.

Justin wanted more answers but Brian had fallen back asleep. Brian had been secretive a lot lately, and it worried him. He had finally told him about the cancer and he promised him that there would be no more secrets but something was up. He picked up his pants and a car rental receipt fell out of it. Apparently he had been in a town three hours away. Who could he be going to see? He turned back and saw him sleeping and was just happy that he was there and alive. He needed answers though, and he would get to the bottom of this.

Writer's Block: Top of the Charts

latoyacollins@yahoo.com — Sat, 05 Sep 2009 18:18:04 GMT

What's the most-played song in your music library?

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Writer's Block: My Must-Have Computer Accessories

latoyacollins@yahoo.com — Fri, 04 Sep 2009 04:35:08 GMT

What computer accessories and peripherals can't you live without?

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Hmm i guess the ones that i can't live without would be Word, Photoshop, Adobe Reader, and Movie Maker.

All this happened in a year

latoyacollins@yahoo.com — Sun, 30 Aug 2009 05:59:38 GMT

A Year ago today my dad sat us all down and told us he had cancer. He told us he would be beat it and by this time this year we'd all be sitting around laughing and talking about how he made it.

In October of last year my dad had a stroke and after that he refused treatment. He made them stop the chemo that could've saved his life. He refused the PT that could have gotten him back the use to his body and he closed his mouth and pretty much stopped talking.

On July 31st of this year my dad gave up and died.

What a difference a year makes indeed.

Shall I Continue?

latoyacollins@yahoo.com — Wed, 19 Aug 2009 07:29:16 GMT

This is the preview of my two vids. Ones for doctor who and the other is for buffy so tell me shall i continue?

The Assistant chapter 2

latoyacollins@yahoo.com — Mon, 17 Aug 2009 07:50:19 GMT

Okay as i said i was going to be speedy with this one so here's chapter 2

Title: The Assistant

Beta: My great friend Michelle

Summary: Brian has a new assistant. He's perfect and kind and everything anyone could want in an assistant and friend. There's just one problem. He wants Brian. He wants Brian badly and he will do whatever it takes to get him. Even if he has to get rid of a certain blonde.

Word Count: 1291

Author's Notes: Well nothing really happens this chapter not much. Well you do get see that Patrick is crazy and Patrick sees Justin for the first time. I promise the next chapter will be super long and full of lots of story.

Justin ran around his apartment quickly, trying to pack his things to take back to the Pitts with him. He was running late and he hadn’t had time to call Brian and tell him he’d be on a later flight. Justin knew that Brian was already freaking because he had to make sure Cynthia left today .She wanted to keep working. If she persisted,Brian would let her continue, and before you knew it she'd be giving birth on the office floor.Then they were going to have another big talk about whether or not he could come home to stay, so he’d better call and tell him that he would be late.

******

Patrick decided that sitting at this stupid desk was getting old and he had things he had to do.

Like getting to know his prey and finding out about Justin Taylor.

He googled him and the kid had brain damage. He was well known, but he was a kid That was what he was sure Brian found appealing. He wanted a "Pretty Young Thing". Patrick needed to show Brian that things get better with age, -or at least close to your own age.

The sound of the phone tore him from the computer screen Thank you for Calling Kinnetic, Brian Kinney’s office,” Patrick said,trying very hard to sound professional.

“Yeah, put me through to Brian please.”

“I’m sorry Mr. Kinney is gone for the day. May I take a message?”

“Where is he? I called on his cell and he probably forgot to charge it. I’m Justin. I really need to speak to him

“Justin? Is this name supposed to be important? Am I supposed to know who Justin is? Are you from The Porkstation ? Mr. Kinney wanted to reschedule that until next week.”

“No I’m Justin Taylor. I’m Brian’s partner.”

“Oh.”

“Oh, what do you mean Oh?” Justin practically shouted

“Nothing. I mean, I just thought that guy, well no matter - Listen, Joshua is it? Brian left earlier. I heard him on the phone making arrangements. I thought that…well never mind what I thought, I’m just the secretary. So yea(I'd leave the So yea part out) I’ll tell him you called.”

“Tell him that I’m going to be late! I had to get a different flight,” Justin shouted before he heard the click of the line going dead.

****

“You did what?” questioned Brian.

“I think I sort of outed Ben to his father. I mean, he invited me there and I told him that I was a friend of Ben’s but I just don’t think he was getting it.”

“Are you serious Mikey? The guy wrote a book called “Are You One Too?” I don’t think it was about carpentry. The guy is nearly forty.I’m sure that his father knows. He’s not one to keep in the closet,” replied Brian.

“Something’s up though; he invited us over to dinner next week. I don’t know what to expect when we get there. I know he remarried,and maybe she and Ben don’t get along. Maybe I should’ve thought this through before I went sticking my nose in other people’s business .It’s the Deb in me. When it all comes down I’ll blame my mother.”

“Yeah, right. Listen I need to make a call, find us a table where we can shoot some pool and then I have to go and meet Justin.”

*****

Patrick was tired of sitting behind this stupid desk and five o’clock wasn’t coming fast enough.

He had things to do, and lists to be made.

Just thinking about Brian made a smile come to his face, It also saddened him when he thought of how he was feeling for Brian now,because it was how he had felt for George.

What good did loving George do, though? No good at all. It just got him a free ticket to crazy town. No, things would be different this time.

******

The phone rang.“Brian Kinney’s Office,” Patrick answered.

“Yeah, any messages?” shouted Brian.

“Yeah that guy , Jordan called.”

“I told you to put me directly through if he called! Why didn’t you?”

“Well I was going to sir, but he told me not to bother. He said just tell you that he wouldn’t be coming in tonight because his flight was delayed.”

“What the fuck do you mean his flight was delayed? There are other flights! Why didn’t he get another one?”

“I don’t know sir. Shall I try and ring him back for you?”

“No, listen just go home. It’s after five. I’ll see you tomorrow.”

“Are you sure sir? Because I could stay around and do some other stuff if need be.”

“No, it’s fine Patrick,.See you tomorrow.There's no need to try and kiss my ass all in one day,” he shouted as he slammed his phone shut.

Patrick couldn’t help but grin at what he had accomplished. He had convinced Brian that his sweet Justin wasn’t coming and now he could go to the airport and get his first glimpse at his competition.. Really ,what could this child have? He wasn’t even thirty yet! What could he possibly have that kept Brian coming back for more

*****

Michael was nervous.

He had given Hunter his dinner and sent him to bed and was waiting up for Ben. It was time that he stopped being scared and just told him what he did. So he went on the net and did a search and tracked down Ben's father. It didn’t take much when he was in the same town with Ben. He was right downtown,so why was Ben avoiding him? Michael heard the key turning and knew it was the moment of truth.

*******

Patrick stood at the terminal waiting. Waiting to see the little blonde bitch as he exited the plane with a smile on his face, looking for Brian to be there and then finding no one. He wanted to see it. He needed to see the disappointment, the hurt, and all the pain.Yeah,he needed that bad. It would be so easy taking Brian from Justin. The kid never had a chance when it came to him getting what he wanted -and he wanted Brian Kinney.

****

Brian knew that it was totally ridiculous to be waiting at an airport, but something just told him that he needed to be there. He looked at the doors where the people were departing and that’s when he saw it. Justin's smile when he saw he was standing there waiting. It was enough to get him out of the funk that he had been in.

“Brian! I was afraid that you weren’t going to get my message! You really have to do something about that assistant of yours.”

“What? He told me that you weren’t coming.He said that you couldn’t get a flight out,but something just told me to come here."

“I told him that I was going to be late, but I don’t know- there’s just something about him. Where’d you find him?”

“Cynthia found him.But enough about that, Sunshine. You’ve been in town for twenty minutes .Enough with the chit chat !I got things that you and I need to be doing,preferably naked.”

**********

Patrick watched the two people leaving the airport hand and hand. The little blond was even giggling,which was totally getting on his nerves. His head began to pound. Maybe this would be a little harder than he thought. He took his pad from his pocket and composed his list.

First thing had to do was get a new haircut, then pick up Brian’s dry cleaning . Brian had to look good for a big meeting on Friday and an interview with Forbes magazine.

Finally,he had to kill Justin Taylor..

Oh yeah,he had to do it soon.

The Assistant Chapter 1

latoyacollins@yahoo.com — Fri, 14 Aug 2009 05:23:28 GMT

Okay time for a new story. I know it's not Melanie Discovers like i promised which will be posted tomorrow or Saturday but it's something a little diffrent that i hope you fine folks enjoy reading.

Title: The Assistant

Beta: My great friend Michelle

Summary: Brian has a new assistant. He's perfect and kind and everything anyone could want in an assistant and friend. There's just one problem. He wants Brian. He wants Brian badly and he will do whatever it takes to get him. Even if he has to get rid of a certain blonde.

Word Count: 1297

Chapter Notes: This story is a little different than anything that i have written but i promise something great and you'll be taken on a wild ride. Also all of my stories are BJ centric so they always end up together. So please take the time to read it.

Lights, lights, there were so many lights and Patrick knew that if he stopped that he would pass out. He could hear the dogs. They were coming, and he wasn’t going back. He would never go back to a place like that again. They didn’t understand how he felt about Bruce,and Bruce felt the same way. They just thought there their love was wrong No one knew how he touched him so and how he made him feel. He stopped outside a gated community saw a car and climbed inside. No one would find him, he hoped.

Cynthia Moore stood in her boss’ office trying her best not to laugh as he bitched and moaned and paced the little space between them. Sometimes she forgot just how cute he could be, even when he was about to explode or complain

“How can you just stand there not saying anything?” Brian shouted.

“What would you like me to say Mr. Kinney?” Cynthia joked, trying not to laugh.

“I would like if you said that you were joking and of course you’d stay on. I mean, do you expect me to just give you this time off?”

“Brian don’t be like this. You've had time to adjust to this happening. I gave you fair warning,and besides I found a great replacement.”

“Really?” he asked in a sarcastic tone

“Yeah. The agency said he’s great, and I’ve left him a long list of things. Don't worry, it’ll be like I’m still here.”

“Sure it will. So go, I’m tired of looking at you.”

“Brian?” Cynthia questioned.

“By the way, this is for you.” replied Brian shoving a bag at her.

Cynthia looked inside the bag that Brian had given her and she begin to cry. She had promised herself that she wouldn’t cry when it came time to say goodbye.

“I’m sorry Brian.” she said through sobs.

“Jesus Cyn, you’re just leaving on maternity leave. It’s not like your you're dying of cancer.” Brian replied.

When Brian said that Cynthia looked up, alarmed.

“Brian?” she questioned anxiously .

“Jesus Cynthia I’m fine. Just leave and go have your kid ,and love it and whatever mother’s do with their babies, because when it’s time to come back to work it’s time to come back to work. I don’t want to hear that 'but Brian the baby needs me crap'..

“I promise. The guy should be here any moment.”

Patrick Davison stepped on to the elevator of Kinnetic wondering what the fuck was he doing? He shouldn’t be here,

Sean Meyers was a sweet kid. He was nice, and he didn’t seem to mind when he found Patrick hiding in his car,but then it happened. Sean started looking at him, and Patrick knew that he knew. Sean knew that he was on the run. He didn’t want to,but he had to.

He would do anything not to be discovered, and that is why he was here. He saw Sean's date book and he was coming to Kinnetic today. So he'd start working at Kinnetick, and then do whatever he needed to do to get fired. Then he could disappear into his new identiy.
*****

Michael Novotny still couldn’t believe that he was married. Okay,so in the Pitts it wasn’t legal The world was changing all around him,though, and before you know it maybe he would be allowed to say that he Michael was Mr. Benjamin Bruckner.Thinking about starting a family with Ben made Michael realize that he didn't know much about Ben’s family, or Ben’s past. So that made him decide to do some digging and he found Ben’s dad. He was going over to his office later. He couldn’t believe when he called Mr. Bruckner he just told him to come by..

“What’s going on?” questioned Ben.

“Nothing, why would you ask?” answered Michael.

“I don’t know .You have that 'I’m up to something' look about you. I have a meeting this afternoon and I don’t need to be worrying about you all day.”

“Everything is fine Ben, I’m going to meet Brian for lunch and then I have an appointment.”

“How is Brian doing?”

“You know Brian. He’s missing his “sunshine” but he won’t let on ,so he’s being extra shitty. I’m just glad that Justin is coming back today or I don’t know what he might do.”

“Okay but I’ll be late tonight so you and Hunter get something without me.”

“Sure thing.”

*******

Patrick knew that it would be easy to get fired from this job,.He had been going over and over every little note that his former assistant had left and apparently Mr. Kinney was all about control and wanted everything to be perfect . A little spit in the coffee and an"accidental"water spill would be all it would take sounds better. Patrick opened the door to Mr. Kinney’s office, and for the first time he came face to face with his new boss.
****

Brian walked from his office, already pissed that Cynthia was gone and that Justin had called and said that his flight was delayed. It would be another hour before he got here. Then he spilled coffee on his new suit. "Damn the world", he thought and then he came face to face with Cynthia’s replacement.

****
Patrick tried to look nonchalant when he looked up at one Brian Kinney but as soon as his eyes met with his,he knew two things. One, he was not about to get fired from this job. Two, he would have this man on his knees screaming his name by the end of the night. Oh yes, he couldn’t wait to---

“Are you even listening to me? shouted Brian, cutting Patrick from his daydream.

“Oh yes Mr. Kinney. Kyle from Jiffy Lube called and said that they needed to reschedule their meeting, so now your schedule is empty for the rest of the day.”

“Good, well I’m gone for the rest of the day. See if you can manage to stay here till five and take all my messages in a handwriting I can read.”

“Are you expecting anything important ,sir?” asked Patrick.

“Well I don’t really care about any of it unless it’s Justin. If he can’t get through on my private line he’ll call here, and if he does you call me with his message. Got it?” Brian shouted.

"Oh, sure sir, and this Justin -who is he so I’ll know for future reference?”

“Cynthia said she explained everything to you! Justin is my lover ,you got it,? So if we’re going to have some kind of problem with that, there’s the door," Brian practically shouted.

“Oh no sir that’s fine, and if he calls I’ll get back to you.”

“Good.”

Patrick watched as Brian walked away. There was something about that swagger that was making him hard. He would go into the bathroom later and fix that but he had to watch him walk away. This would be the last time Brian Kinney walked away from him.
***

As Brian entered the elevator Patrick made a list of the things he would have to do.
First he had to get rid of the body in the trunk of his car. Second, he had to do all the research on Brian Kinney that he could. He needed to get inside his head. Be the Ying to his Yang and be everything he wanted and needed.
And third he had to find this Justin and kill him.
Justin had to die.

A Post About Ranting

latoyacollins@yahoo.com — Tue, 04 Aug 2009 16:44:38 GMT

This is a post so i can get some things off my chest. I write it hear cause most of the folks in the coven that i call a family don't have a livejournal but they have every other damn outlet on the internet. And yes i realize i said Coven because i realize that all of these are witches that i call sisters. Are should is say Bitches. Oh yes that's the word bitches. Evil little bitches. Our father is dead and they are stupid. There's one who is walking around snapping at everyone. If you say anything to her she comes back with well you don't understand my daddy is dead ? Really. Your daddy is dead no shit i thought mine was too. I just wish folks would just i odn't know tell me what orphanage i was got from so i can go find my folks cause it's like i'm not even apart of the family. My sister M is freaking out and then my sister G who is the oldest she was actually in the room with my dad when he passed and she stayed there with him while other folks walked in and never told a soul he was dead just let them discover that on there on what the fuck man? Then my other sister M who is the third is cracking up cause she and my dad was pratically the same person and now the others won't let her grieve cause they are too busy screaming at her and demanding her to do things and then there's me. The sick one the one they thought would be a basketcase is calm cool and collected and is fine wiht not going to my dad's funeral and they are folks that might have a problem with that whell you know what i can tell them to kiss this ass.

No One Understands

latoyacollins@yahoo.com — Sat, 01 Aug 2009 09:09:14 GMT

I wrote this poem when i learned of my father's death yesterday i thought i'd share

No one understands
No one gets me
At this very moment I’m unsure what I feel
Empty
Is that a good word Empty.
I could close my eyes and breathe and feel him. Feel the warmth of his love surrounding me
But now when I close my eyes I’m cold
I’m cold and alone
I need it
I need his warmth
I need his love
Its how I made it through my days
It’s how I knew I could be and do whatever I wanted
It’s how I knew I could go on
How will I feel it now?
Who will give me that warmth
No one
He can’t and won’t be replaced
His final sun has set
And I’m left in the cold
No one understands.

Greetings

latoyacollins@yahoo.com — Mon, 27 Jul 2009 17:11:32 GMT

Greetings friends this is the first of many and i'[m back and i plan to be posting new stories and everything soon. Also isn't he the cutest thing.

Writer's Block: Bite Me

latoyacollins@yahoo.com — Mon, 27 Jul 2009 17:08:40 GMT

From Dr. Polidori's Lord Ruthven to Stephenie Meyer's Edward Cullen, the annals of vampire lore are filled with attractive, charming bloodsuckers. Which one would you most want to be bitten by?

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Oh man that's kind of hard, i mean do you have to bitten by just one? I guess if i were to be bitten by one vampire it would have to be Joss Whedon's Angel. because with him at least i know i wouldn't be murdered.

Shall I Continue?

latoyacollins@yahoo.com — Sat, 11 Jul 2009 07:49:46 GMT

A Little Torchwood Teaser. Shall I Continue?

Okay Okay I've Changed My MInd

latoyacollins@yahoo.com — Sat, 11 Jul 2009 06:06:54 GMT

Okay so i was upset in what happened in day four of the torchwood five part and then when i saw what happened in the final i realized a lot of things and i have come to my own conclusions.

We are falling for a huge ploy. Okay so they said that we were going to love what happened in the whole jack and ianto thing but we aren't happy. we are planning revolutions and sabatoges because of what they did nd we want it fixed. that's what they want. they want the word to get out about trochwood and they want it to be renewed for season four. we're helping them get renewed and that's the plan.

RTD, JB, and even our beloved Ianto are sitting at home now loving all of the outrage of the death of Ianto. Why? Because he's been renewed. I'm sure they already have it cooked up on how they are going to bring him back if they are renewed. then we the fans will be like. Wow we were listened too. No you weren't, you are a pawn. They are playing us. They wouldn't do something like this. That's why when season four premieres like it will i'll watch cause i can't wait to see how they bring him back

later days

latoya

Russel T Davies is a BITCH

latoyacollins@yahoo.com — Fri, 10 Jul 2009 01:27:23 GMT

Okay i am doing a post just like last night. not giveing it away but just venting. I CAN'T FUCKING BELIEVE IT. HOW DARE HE? FIRST TEN AND NOW.... THAT TOOL IF IT STAYS THIS WAY I'M WRITING LETTERS AND SENDING POST CARDS AND TELLING HIM TO SHOVE IT WHERE THE SUN DON'T SHINE. I MEAN COME ON PEOPLE REALLY YOU KNOW WHAT I MEAN I MEAN REALLY. WHAT THE FUCK? I JUST AND THEN HE AND THEN HE DIDN'T. GOD DAMMIT. THE PEOPLE AT WORK THINK I'M NUTS AND PERRY'S PISSED. HE'S GOING TO LONDON TO FIND RUSSEL AND KICK HIS ASS. WELL HE WAS GOING THERE ANYWHERE BUT NOW HE'S PLANNING A DETOUR. I MEAN GOD DAMMMIT. WELL I'M GOING TO WATCH TOMORROW BUT DAMN MAN. AM I ALONE? DO YOU WANNA VENT? DO YOU WANNA SCREAM? HIT ME UP ON MESSANGER CAUSE I'M ABOUT TO POP!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!